Ramadhan ya Ramadhan

To me, Ramadhan is the perfect month for us, Muslims, to reflect on ourselves, to how we've been and to whom we wanna become. Allah s.w.t has been undoubtedly generous to provide us a 'magical' month to which is such a blessing to us all. Ramadhan is like having a 'Smart Tag' your way to be closer to our dearest Creator.

From Anas, radiyallahu 'anhu, who said: I heard the Messenger of Allah, sallallahu 'alayhi wasallam, say:

"Allah the Almighty has said: 'O son of Adam, so long as you call upon Me, and hope in Me, I shall forgive you for what you have done, and I shall not mind. O son of Adam, were your sins to reach the clouds in the sky and were you then to ask forgiveness of Me, I shall forgive you. O son of Adam, were you to come to Me with an earthful of sins and were you then to face Me, without having associated anything with Me, I shall grant you an earthful of pardon.''

For the past 28 days of sheer enjoyment of fasting, I too, have been thinking, and reflecting myself in so many ways. How I perform my solah, how I cover my aurah, how I take my ablution, and how frequent do I thank Allah for everything He has bestowed upon me. I do regret that my pace of improving is quite slow than I imagined it to be. I don't blame anyone but me though.

Whatever it is, I just am grateful to be given the opportunity to live and breathe to this day as a Muslim. Wearing a hijab and protect me from doing sinful things. To be blessed in this pink of health. And so many other uncountable things that I've been blessed with.

Talking about the 'aurah' and the image of a muslim girl. I do admit that somehow I don't really reflect the image as a muslim girl. There is a story behind all this saying. I know that sometimes when dressed myself, I don't really care if my outfits doesn't seem to be appropriate *sometimes* to be seen by others. One day, as I'm wearing white long blue sleeve with a black skirts, I didn't noticed that outfits is quite "seeing-able" by others. To make things up, there's a guy that noticed and adviced me to change my outfits *that guy didn't approached me face to face but he pass it to my friend* From that moment, I've started to think back on how I represent myself as a muslimah. I know that somehow I have to change myself to be a better muslimah with a good attitude and also a good image wear of a muslim girl.

Eidul Fitri is just around the corner. I do hope after this I will growing into a better muslim lady and may Allah swt bless my family, my study and myself. Hope this raya marks the end of eventful year and hope the next will just as (if not more) amazing as the last. Amin ya rabbal alamin.

We could have it all

secret#001
I like to remind myself how lucky I was to had time with him at all.

Me : You had my heart in your hand for now,and you played it to the beat *smile*
You: ....

It is really uncertainties that are driving me crazy,isn't it?I don't know what and why.There's too many question that I can't seem to stop them from keep coming into my head and the answers seem like there are not to be found. It is astounding how fate seems to play its role at its best when we least expect it.It is puzzling how some people are meant to meet and fall in love but are not meant to be together.The doubts that I have in myself are doing a pretty good job in further dragging myself mind-thinking imaginary world of mine that is fulled if life questing mostly the what-if questions.

It is also funny how you keep hoping on something despite knowing how hopeless it is.And then you keep telling yourself that thing happen for reasons,yep cliche enough at its best.And then while hoping for the time to help to sort things out for your,that feeling you thought you had forgotten just have to come back,sometimes stronger than before.But its not because of you are not over things yet,it simply because you miss how you felt back then.

Ok.DONE.Perhaps it is so wondering what is the reason for that entry above.Well actually me neither also kept asking myself *hahaha* Tak la.It is because I think that maybe I need some reversing techniques *haaa?whats that??* nop,perhaps its just a way to help me out to keep myself calm and keep living my life properly.And just to share with the world that tonight I've watched a sweet love movie by Khabir Bhatia entitled Keabadian Cinta.It is such a sweet movie about the lovelholic of three different couples.I love the way Khabir captured the love stories of them in his own simple way and make us think love in the deeper way.

p/s:Currently on Adele//Rolling in the Deep *nice*

Thanks JK Rowling

So,here we go.YUP.We'r heading for a meeting with Mr.Potter and the gang.We'r watching the final part of Harry Potter sequels.Thus,we,namely ibu,kuya the amoi,me,and iwan pemandu kami headed to JUSCO and struggled for the 2 pm movie.Well,to be honest I'm not totally a big huge hardcore fan of Harry as if you do ask me anything under the sky about Harry Potter thingy,surely I cant scored myself by that.Even the book also I cant fit myself to read all 7th books of the JK'S.Even it really obviously showed that Im sort of like I didnt care whether I watch Harry or not but the thing is I do care and I wanna watch Harry and the gang..yooooo..

See the amoi above trying her very best to show the ticks of Harry Potter and The Deathly Hallow P2.Thanks amoi,we'll treat you with hotdog okayyy..

And again the amoi again together with a hotdog reward posing like heyyy with the Harry Potter and The Deathly Hallow giant poster.

With the help of GOOGLE,I've found this.It is the picture of some of HP cast/star with their cute yer childish face on left side and on the right side is their transformation to a more matured and vogeh style.Am I right??

So it ends for Mr.Potter.
Could you imagine after more than a decade,Harry Potter and The Deathly Hallows concludes the series of moving and magical world of Harry and friends.Well,after seeing that,it shows that it is such a fine conclusion but in my most opinion I do think this is the most extraordinary movie that I ever watched.To be honest I almost cry and at the end of the movie I feel like wanna stand and give standing ovation to that. *thumbs up*
Dear Harry Potter,we are going to miss you.

Sekian, terima kasih JK Rowling
for introducing me to Harry.
='D

Better than nothing

p/s:I am currently on BETTER THAN NOTHING by Maria Mena

First of all I am truly apologies for not updating LULA. This is totally because I can't find my courage to wrote something here. Plus my head is spinning like hey! for the past few months. I don't even know whether I can compile all that and share it here. For the past few months ago, for the first time in my life I felt like a normal teens as I am totally being "interrogate" with some loveholic drama and more drama melancolic (did i spell it right?)..hehe..translate,please? Well, this is obviously not the first time I fall from the stairs (fall in L**** should i say)ahaha.. but this the love struck is more stucked!hehe.. em..sorry to say, why suddenly I don't have the urge (still) or still don't have the mood the share it..maybe this thingy happened for quite a time ago and all I wanna do is just continue my life to the fullest and be a good daughter to my ibu. Later2, kte continue series ni ok?

So, lets talk about the song?nak? haha..I found that song from my big bro ipod (cehhh..org KL mesti lew already have an ipod and all the coolest gadget in town) hehe..as I were sneaking around his playlist, as to be honest I am such a beginner to become a music lover and actually I don't find his choice of song really suits me..but then,finally..i found Maria Mena.

WHEN THE MALAY PEOPLE SAY...

mixing around plus getting closer to the friends.
i.a.m.a.s.i.c.k.p.e.r.s.o.n.
me..dah layak mengundi.
birthday oh birthday..sana sini
dah terer termenung..nak thinking of my own business
the latest and newest journal entires.


bila orang melayu kata:
"ish..ish..apa nak jadi daa??dah bersawang dah belogsepot nih.Dasar pemaleh tahap kronik betul la budak ni.Nak update kan blog satu ni pon susah..kwang..kwang.."


hahaha..i dont even know what is happening to me.Like now is already at the month of March and it is almost getting to the end,thus,to make things worst,im not even have my own NEW YEAR RESOLUTION for the year of 2011!!!what the f***!Well,its not being a great started for me,as i dont [ yet ] seem to see the greatest things happening to myself.

BUT!It is never to late to started it all over again.Right??Em..all i one is just to have the best for myself.I really hope someday something really great gonna happen to me.Insyaallah.

BUT!To make things nice and clear,for this post,i'll just updated you guys with some sweet little things that had happen to me.


XOXO .

2010 IN MEMORY.

1//Aku as a budak lepasan SPM.Baru nak kenal dunia.Jadi bermula lah ke-busy-an aku menanam anggur.


2//Dalam busy menanam segala macam jenis anggur,aku sempat make friend with Mr.FACEBOOK atau dalam bahasa malaya,En.MUKABUKU.Dia ni sangatlah famous amous.Ramai penduduk dunia nak make friend dengan dia.





3//Dalam dok waiting for the anggur,aku sempat la jugak menubuhkan YAYASAN AMAL KEBAJIKAN yang diberi nama PINKpondok.Yayasan ini bertekad untuk menjual karya handmade truly from the heart of Cik Paranoid Freak.



4//Miss Paranoid Freak telah felt so damn boring menanam anggur lalu bertekad tuk bekerja dengan seorang selebriti berjiwa besar di kedai sebesar JET dan telah mula dengan image HIJAB STYLE COVER.



5//Get the chance to sambung study kat UiTM,Perak.




6//Get to met new and some old friends.Plus aku dah ada new crush.


7//Gagahkan diri untuk belajar nombor-nombor.And final pon was not so good.But,keep on and add on the really hard work to strive for a better result next sem.



8//SHOUT AWARD


9//MAYSAA


p/s:that is not even half of my journey during the year 2010.It just part of it.Btw,alhamdulilah,2010 is quite a good year to me--->get to go new place,met new friend,happiness vs sadness,ups and down,very busy vs not so busy,cousin get married,love,family,crushes,flirting aka scandals,and etc...and I'll pray all better thing will come our way in 2011.Amin.Selamat tahun baru 2011.

IM JUST WONDERING.

*BERITA HANGAT ni..dah famous!WOW..
*cehh...bajet lawa la muka tu bila tengah wondering..perghh!


AKU JUST TERTANYA-TANYA WHAT IF?

MALAYSIAN TEAM TAK MENANG?----->ish..sial ye mulut kau ni...sorry2

Ada ke sesiapa yang akan post kat FACEBOOK atau TWITTER,
''Malaysia,I loveeeeeeeeee youuuuuuuu!''


Adakah kita semua akan ada spirit nak follow match bola sepak Malaysia yang lain if Malaysia kalah?


Adakah kita akan bangga jadi anak Malaysia?


Adakah kita akan marah jika rakyat Malaysia memantulkan sinaran Ultraman kepada pasukan negara lain?


Adakah kita akan memuji PERSATUAN BOLA SEPAK NEGARA ataupun kita akan memaki hamun diaorang sebab kalah?



Adakah kita akan jadi fan pemain sukan negara kat FACEBOOK walaupun pemain tu sememang ye bagus?


Adakah kita memang tak give any damn to Malaysian Game as all we wanted was only the PUBLIC HOLIDAY?


Adakah kita akan menjadi kaki bola yang setia bertahan selama lebih dari seminggu?


Apapun


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tahniah MALAYSIA !!!!!!!!



Keep on the super good job.Biar terus sampai WORLD CUP!

p/s:ini langsung tak ada kena mengena dengan yang hidup mahupun yang sebaliknya.Sekadar ingin melepaskan rasa curiousity aku.