To me, Ramadhan is the perfect month for us, Muslims, to reflect on ourselves, to how we've been and to whom we wanna become. Allah s.w.t has been undoubtedly generous to provide us a 'magical' month to which is such a blessing to us all. Ramadhan is like having a 'Smart Tag' your way to be closer to our dearest Creator.
From Anas, radiyallahu 'anhu, who said: I heard the Messenger of Allah, sallallahu 'alayhi wasallam, say:
"Allah the Almighty has said: 'O son of Adam, so long as you call upon Me, and hope in Me, I shall forgive you for what you have done, and I shall not mind. O son of Adam, were your sins to reach the clouds in the sky and were you then to ask forgiveness of Me, I shall forgive you. O son of Adam, were you to come to Me with an earthful of sins and were you then to face Me, without having associated anything with Me, I shall grant you an earthful of pardon.''
For the past 28 days of sheer enjoyment of fasting, I too, have been thinking, and reflecting myself in so many ways. How I perform my solah, how I cover my aurah, how I take my ablution, and how frequent do I thank Allah for everything He has bestowed upon me. I do regret that my pace of improving is quite slow than I imagined it to be. I don't blame anyone but me though.
Whatever it is, I just am grateful to be given the opportunity to live and breathe to this day as a Muslim. Wearing a hijab and protect me from doing sinful things. To be blessed in this pink of health. And so many other uncountable things that I've been blessed with.
Talking about the 'aurah' and the image of a muslim girl. I do admit that somehow I don't really reflect the image as a muslim girl. There is a story behind all this saying. I know that sometimes when dressed myself, I don't really care if my outfits doesn't seem to be appropriate *sometimes* to be seen by others. One day, as I'm wearing white long blue sleeve with a black skirts, I didn't noticed that outfits is quite "seeing-able" by others. To make things up, there's a guy that noticed and adviced me to change my outfits *that guy didn't approached me face to face but he pass it to my friend* From that moment, I've started to think back on how I represent myself as a muslimah. I know that somehow I have to change myself to be a better muslimah with a good attitude and also a good image wear of a muslim girl.
Eidul Fitri is just around the corner. I do hope after this I will growing into a better muslim lady and may Allah swt bless my family, my study and myself. Hope this raya marks the end of eventful year and hope the next will just as (if not more) amazing as the last. Amin ya rabbal alamin.