Saturday, April 7, 2012


You were there to light my day
You were there to guide me through
I'll never stop thinking of you
How can I ever forget all day
You are the one who make me smile
Your love will be always part of me
How I'd wish you were still mine
Never will forget the day we met
and came this far
We know we got this feeling
but somehow................

You mean so much to me.

Monday, February 20, 2012

Are you doing your best?

"Its funny how at the end of every day we feel like nothing much changing but before we know it everything change"

Not sure where i read that from, i might rephrased it but daa the point is life is some sort of constant changes and sometimes things changes so rapidly and that's make us don't realize them. Its already the second month of 2010 and I keep forgetting the fact that I am going to turning twenty this year.

To be honest, these past few moment I been quite nothing but emotional. It's like I'm in this balloon and of emotions waiting to explode. I get sad, insecure, happy, tired and excited at the same time. And as much as I don't want to admit this, happy so far take the smallest pieces of the cake of life. I can't quite figure out the reason to why I am feeling whatever I am feeling right at this moment of life.

I hope I don't come off as complaining here. I just feel like writing again.

I feel like writing again. Writing in terms of anything. haha . Stepping out of teenage life, will be turning twenty and starting to seriously figure out mu future. And that's make me feel like maybe I should write about growing up and how it has been like for me.



I do need some courage and inspiration on this.



Do not know what to say more on this.

Ok, then, enough for this time, I can't think more due to less-energy-hungry-lonely-whatyoucouldnameit..

"A little more laughter, a little less worry, a little more kindness, a little less hurry.."


Saturday, November 19, 2011

Someone like you

"Sometimes it last in love, sometimes it hurts inside."

I think the most ironic thing about love is the idea of being in love itself. Butterflies in the stomach, weak knees, smiling to yourself without reasons, well,surely you get what I mean. Of course those who had experienced this will probably said relationship are more than a cliche' picture of a classic love, the fights, the broken promises, the uncertainties future, the never ending questions and the list goes on.

But for those who had not experienced love or being in a relationship, and know things through novels and movies, perhaps this including me, for some kind reasons =P, they have slightly different say. We know the idea of love is not all sweet but, we know it is more than that.

Of course some will say it is better to stay out of love if you are not ready for it. But since we are really well prepared for anything in life? Things come knocking at our doors at most undefined time in life. Some will say stay out of love and your heart is safe. Well, I would say that love is something you can't run away from because when you love, you just do. You may hide, but the feeling don't simply disappear, at least not easily. But yes, I do believe hearts move on as time passed by, the memories may stay, but then you will realize the memories are the reasons that you have to learned, from love, from life.

"Life is too ironic to understand. It takes sadness to know what happiness is, noise to appreciate silence, and absence to value presence." - Tumblr


Thursday, November 17, 2011

A Little More

You hold a string of hope. You tie yourself to the sweet memories. You know how things will end, but know better that you should keep doing what you are doing. Hoping and having that slightest faith that is inches from slipping away, and appreciating how the sweet memories make you smile.

You thought of doing things differently. Perhaps forgetting everything and refreshing the boring routine of your ways thinking and taking life in. But this kind of different just did not work, yet, at least for you, you told yourself that. So went back to the same old road, just thankful. No complains. No regrets.

Because complaining means you are not grateful and regretting means you are not learning.

"Kalau kita berubah untuk menjadi baik kerana ALLAH SWT, ALLAH akan menghantar orang yang baik-baik untuk bersama kita"

Till then,

Monday, November 14, 2011

Love on paper

Haven't been drawing for a long time, but was reminded when little, if I had nothing better to do, all I need was pencil and paper to keep me entertained. Well, actually, that's a flip on a pages of my diary. The L.O.V.E ISSUES, my favorite.

In addition, I've done some thinking and looking back on my life. After a few rapid internal issue of myself, now, I'm trying to focus on something really new in my life. I will be back to UITM soon. But, instead of coping with my study, I think I haven't done things that I really enjoy doing things that slightly different from my normal things. I wanna do things out of my reach, and actually really have fun while I'm at it.


1// Spend more time with my family and friends.

2// Devoting myself to ALLAH SWT, be a better muslimah, and recite the ALQURAN as much as I can.

3// Catch on my reading habits. Increase my vocab especially in English. More book-hunting . . yey!!

4// Try on rollerblading, cycling, jogging, and everything -ing -ing -ing. =P

5// Be engrossed with my studies. NAK DEAN LIST!!

6// Saving for traveling . . go places, explore new thing.

7// Beli camera . . maybe POLAROID??

8// Belajar menjahit . . A COTTON CASE!!

9// Continue on my art stuff . . tote bag. journals . . and . .

10// Learn new languages . . Japanese, French, . . .

11// Learn picture editing . . Install photoshop . .

12// Cook new thing . . baking!!!

13// Pegi gym?? Get fit vs KURUS!!

14// Reconstructing my wardrobe.. I need new styles . hehe

15// what more?????

Till then,

Thursday, November 10, 2011

Desire to Inspire


Before I've move further for today's entry, this entry doesn't followed with any pictures ok? Well, the blogging is not actually or really about uploading pictures.

Yup, the date is 11.11.11.

What a nice date, and its Friday.

Well, actually I don't even know what to write. Yes, it seems that I've lost my inspiration. I do admit that even I don't want so. Its been a "rapid" week I guess *deep inside mine*. I don't know why I felt I've lost someone that is so motivated and inspirational to me. I don't know why I can't proceed with my 123445788968686086808 things to do on my-to-do list. And again I don't know why. Even I know perhaps this is what I choose. But am I right?

I can't continue that. I'm sorry.

Well, I don't want to ruin this special 11.11.11' post.

I'm sure today is such a special memorable date for each one of us. Perhaps there are some of us choose to get into a relationship or get engage or get married or get divorce *sorry to say* or get into a small break or maybe get into what ever you plan to be with, but what ever it is, DO IT NOT JUST FOR YOURSELF OR FAMILY OR FRIENDS BUT, DO IT FOR ALLAH SWT.


So, that's about it, I guess. Short and simple. To all of you *including me* who wish for unforgettable 11.11.11 this year, insyaallah, I pray so that what ever your heart wishes, it will be granted, may ALLAH SWT bless all of us, amin ya rabbal alamin.



Saturday, October 29, 2011

I Loves LOVE

Me and my cousin'zz *RAYA AJI 2011 oiii*

Happy November, darlings!

Well its hard for me to update my blog as there are some technical problems in order for me to uploading my photo. That situation really affected my mood to blog-ing. But then, I realized and remember the first and main reasons why I start blogging as it will not actually all about photos uploading or anything else, as it should be about me and myself. I should really made this blog as my second diary, which it could be a place where I can express almost anything under the sky.

Here something really from my heart.

There's a saying that goes, " If you love someone, let that person go ."

My feeling about this quote and how it relates to love in my life has always shifted back and forth. If you love someone, why would you ever let that person go? I mean that person is everything you want, everything you love. That person is the only person that you'd ever want to be with, so why let that person go.

Happiness. Perhaps, you let that person go for his happiness. If you really love someone, you will always want that person to be happy. And if being happy means being away for a while, then sometimes yes, you have to let that person go. Even he means everything for you, if it makes him happy to be free, then let him go. There's nothing sadder than than to see the person you truly love unhappy.

What happen to the person who lets go? Of course, she'll experience the pain of letting go of her love, especially after reflecting all the precious time spent with that person. Her heart will continue to yearn for that person, even when its over. No one will say it was easy, but in time, the pain subsides and she'll move on, right?

Hopefully .

Separation are never easy, especially when the love was so good, especially there's still attachment. When people still feel for each other that way, of course neither of them wants the friendship to end. It's the heart that talking, not the mind. Often times the feeling of not wanting the break up comes from the heart, but when you really think hard about it, you choose what's best.

Just because it's the best decision, it doesn't mean the person who proposed it wanted it. Why would she want the end of a good thing? It was never a want. It was a need. It was the end to be real and to be true to be logical.

But then again, does logic really define love?

To be honest, after two people enjoys each others' company go through with it, there are often times still unsure f it was a right decision. Sometimes they feel that this is just another one of those times they say things they don't mean and that maybe tomorrow will be a new day and everything will be okay. Until now, lovers may not be sure if what they did was right. I feel that lovers will one day end up in each others' love again . . Only if they're really meant for each other. Allah knows best.

I'm sure they'll be fine. It's just a hole in the heart that they have to mend and fill with something or someone else. They'll be fine, right? It's not like this is easier for one person than it is for other. Little do they know, they're walking towards recovery together, just on different routes.

Do I sound like I'm heartbroken? Hmmm, not sure myself. Plus I don't even know why I choose to talk on this. To be honest, yes or still maybe I am looking forward or again maybe just some sort of my little feeling that wanna end up on something or someone. I don't know or to be exactly, I don't want to think it now, at the moment, for the mean time. This is quite complicated for me. I am struggling and fighting for what we called . . anjakan paradigma *in the good way of course*.

Well, for the mean time, lets just forget about this, coz I'm tired and sleepy. This Raya Haji really fever up myself due to such a busy and fun lovely majlis doa selamat that was held at my house today and all I need is a good sleep, darl!

me ♥