2010 IN MEMORY.

1//Aku as a budak lepasan SPM.Baru nak kenal dunia.Jadi bermula lah ke-busy-an aku menanam anggur.


2//Dalam busy menanam segala macam jenis anggur,aku sempat make friend with Mr.FACEBOOK atau dalam bahasa malaya,En.MUKABUKU.Dia ni sangatlah famous amous.Ramai penduduk dunia nak make friend dengan dia.





3//Dalam dok waiting for the anggur,aku sempat la jugak menubuhkan YAYASAN AMAL KEBAJIKAN yang diberi nama PINKpondok.Yayasan ini bertekad untuk menjual karya handmade truly from the heart of Cik Paranoid Freak.



4//Miss Paranoid Freak telah felt so damn boring menanam anggur lalu bertekad tuk bekerja dengan seorang selebriti berjiwa besar di kedai sebesar JET dan telah mula dengan image HIJAB STYLE COVER.



5//Get the chance to sambung study kat UiTM,Perak.




6//Get to met new and some old friends.Plus aku dah ada new crush.


7//Gagahkan diri untuk belajar nombor-nombor.And final pon was not so good.But,keep on and add on the really hard work to strive for a better result next sem.



8//SHOUT AWARD


9//MAYSAA


p/s:that is not even half of my journey during the year 2010.It just part of it.Btw,alhamdulilah,2010 is quite a good year to me--->get to go new place,met new friend,happiness vs sadness,ups and down,very busy vs not so busy,cousin get married,love,family,crushes,flirting aka scandals,and etc...and I'll pray all better thing will come our way in 2011.Amin.Selamat tahun baru 2011.

IM JUST WONDERING.

*BERITA HANGAT ni..dah famous!WOW..
*cehh...bajet lawa la muka tu bila tengah wondering..perghh!


AKU JUST TERTANYA-TANYA WHAT IF?

MALAYSIAN TEAM TAK MENANG?----->ish..sial ye mulut kau ni...sorry2

Ada ke sesiapa yang akan post kat FACEBOOK atau TWITTER,
''Malaysia,I loveeeeeeeeee youuuuuuuu!''


Adakah kita semua akan ada spirit nak follow match bola sepak Malaysia yang lain if Malaysia kalah?


Adakah kita akan bangga jadi anak Malaysia?


Adakah kita akan marah jika rakyat Malaysia memantulkan sinaran Ultraman kepada pasukan negara lain?


Adakah kita akan memuji PERSATUAN BOLA SEPAK NEGARA ataupun kita akan memaki hamun diaorang sebab kalah?



Adakah kita akan jadi fan pemain sukan negara kat FACEBOOK walaupun pemain tu sememang ye bagus?


Adakah kita memang tak give any damn to Malaysian Game as all we wanted was only the PUBLIC HOLIDAY?


Adakah kita akan menjadi kaki bola yang setia bertahan selama lebih dari seminggu?


Apapun


..............




tahniah MALAYSIA !!!!!!!!



Keep on the super good job.Biar terus sampai WORLD CUP!

p/s:ini langsung tak ada kena mengena dengan yang hidup mahupun yang sebaliknya.Sekadar ingin melepaskan rasa curiousity aku.

BIG ROUND APPLAUSE TO THEM!

YEYYEYEYEYEYEYEYEYEYEYEYEY!!

Wow!Malaysia menang la lol.Finally.The Suzuki AFF CUP milik kita!
p/s:nak SUZUKI SWIFT kaler kuning satu plus sekali dengan SAFEE SALI,the Malaysian Striker.HEHEHEHE

Frankly,this is my first time ever watching bola and rase sangat2 la syok gila sampai tak ingat dunia.Add on the screaming,woo-ing,saying the football terms *yang selama ni tak penah sebut pon*.YUP.That is so damn true.Aku sepanjang game tu cukup khusyuk *tak penah sekhusyuk ni* sampai begitu focus pada game tu *cehh.

Well,nak kata yang aku ni tak minat bola,minat la gak,FUTSAL pon maen pe *bajet bagus!*.But,before this aku penah la admit kat more than a person yang aku ni tak reti langsung camne nak tengok bola.Tapi,since aku started to watch a few Suzuki Cup Match espeacially yang included Malaysian' team,barulah aku tau sikit2 the right way to watch football.Eventhough,i have to admit that aku maybe prefer to watch if there are a few hot guys at the game!Ape la minah ni,TEROK!hahaha,but that is so true.
Tonight,aku rasa sangat la bangga kerana the whole Malaysia player have done a super damn good job in order to give victory to us.Dengan berbekalkan kemenangan 3-0 di Bukit Jalil,they all telah berjaya mengharungi detik 90 minit dengan jaya ye di Stadium Gelora Bung Karno,Indonesia *perghh,name stadium pon scary tul*yang turut mencemaskan semua orang including me yang amat la kecut perut tadi.Berkalung-kalung tahniah kepada team Malaysia.And aku ingin mengucapkan ucapan tahniah yang lebih sket to INCIK K.RAJAGOPAL,ABE SAFEE SALI *cehh,dh panggil abe*,MR.TAKESHI aka KHAIRUL FAHMI (cik elia pinjam name bf ek) and sape2 la yang nak ucapan terlebih ni.Lupe plak,thanks to ULTRAMAN yang kat atas tu,kerna telah membantu HARIMAU MALAYA MENGAUM DI ASIA TENGGARA SEMULA!

p/s:aku ade tak,macam pengulas sukan??hihihihi

SAYA SAYANG MALAYSIA----->statement maut x?

CE CITER...CE CITER...

Finally.

I get the chance to watch the famous HANTU KAK LIMAH went back home AND THE GANG!

Ce citer.

Nak citer le ni.

So,since aku dengar org duk heboh about this story yg dikatakan lebih famous dari Dr.Rozmey,jadi aku pon telah memasang langsir angan2 nak pi tgk citer ni.Then,aku pon together with the other rombongan pegi la menyerang pawagam yg berdekatan.

So,overall,this story telah success membuat kan aku gelak sampe tak ingat dunia.Memang funny la citer ni yang mostly mengunakan LOGHAT ORG PERAK lol!Aku pon berasa amat lah bangge jadi anak perak *cehh,poyo!

This story is about KAK LIMAH (nama sebenar kot) yg telah disangka sebagai hantu!Jadi orang KAMPUNG PISANG pon memikiokan cara2 nak selesaikan hal KAK LIMAH yg telah menakut kan the entire villager.Macam-macam ade la..yang dye org dah buat.One of the cast in this film is Awie,Delimawati and many more.

So,to sape2 yang tak tengok lagi,ape lagi,moh le ke pawagam ek!!

LOVE GEEK .

nerd with style.perhaps


P/S:I have confession.

I LOVE DORKS.



And weirdos.And misfits.Show me a muscle-bound male model,and I will turn my head towards a bespectacled,skinny,and socially awkward boy instead.I'd take Clark Kent over Superman any day.
I tend to pine for boys who have the shy charm of Weezer's River Coumo *dont ask me that*,the wit of Woody Allen,and the looks of Seth from the O.C (who,with his love of comic books,won me over far more than bad boy,Ryan).I prefer interesting conversation of geekers issues than the cool popular spoil brat issues.
I'm not all alone in my love beta males because I have my own love geek.

p/s:mesti korang pelik bin ajaib apasal la aku merepek ni.Aku DAN SEBENARNYA xtau ape yang aku merepek kan tu.HAHAHA.Actually,this thing adalah coretan yang aku tulis dlm Diary setahun yg lalu iaitu bertarikh 24th december 2009.So,aku pon tengah dok syok belek2 diary 2,were very interested with that LOVE GEEK yg kat dlm my diary 2.

LITTLE LESS DEEPER CONVERSATION PART2

Ok.Its time for me to sambung the ''dramaholic'' conversation yang tergendala a few days ago.BUT!I don't understand,why pic kat sebelah ni tetibe je muncul by no reason and tak ada kena mengena pon ngan post ni.Hairan I.Anyway,bagi je la kat that girl with spectacles tu peluang tuk to be on air kat belogsepot ni.
p/s:this conversation happen after berbalas-balas status at FB and continue with a little less chatting at FB chat room.Then it continue with this conversation.ENJOY!And aku juga telah menghighlightkan words yang aku rase very VOGUE!haha

GUY:Its ok. up 2 u. i have been waiting for a week farah. a week. juz like dat. avoid, silent ur self. ok fine. thanks again 4 ur asnwr dat i have been waiting. u juz do wut u want to do. n avoid me from ur self. i wont disturb u anymore. u no need 2 say sorry or give me a reason dat u have promise wit sum1 or wutever even i dun noe who. thanks again. nice 2 noe n FRIEND wit u FARAH.

ME:wow...is that all??the best u can say???now u r blaming all this to me...yup,sume ye salah i..yg u tau juz waiting for my answer..just that!..u noe what?i really dont want our frenship*if u anggap i ni kwn u la..*to be ended up like this..and everyday..i've been thinking what to say to u..not to give excuse..i really nk bgtau tau u the whole thing..but im afraid to do so..i dont noe why...

GUY:im not blaming on u farah. if u dun want our frenship end like dis. wut? frenship? u noe wut d really meaning of frenship? fren wont let her/his fren wait 4 d answr or wait 4 sumthng. if u say so dat u dun want to end like dis. then. tell me? wut? wut farah?? u afraid? afraid of wut farah? u afraid wit ur self? wit who u promise? u dunt afraid wit ALLAH? thnk rasional farah. u 18. not 8. u can make ur own choice. believe wit ur self. how could u do dis to me farah???

OK.Actually after his message above,I didn't gave him any reply,coz I m really2 sleepy.But then he kept waiting for my reply until he felt fed up and call me.Mula2 memang aku tak nak angkat his call.Tapi aku berani kan diri yang tak berapa nak berani ni *ceh,mentang2 la everyone dh tido* and answered him.I talk to him and tell him almost everything.Well,he quite upset and I think he is crying!!!!Entah la.Rase ye la.But maybe he is really sad of what had happened.He say he had waited for the whole week waiting for my explaination of silentness.Finally,we settle that thing *eventhough aku bagitau him yang aku tak tau what will happen after this.

THE END.

LITTLE LESS DEEPER CONVERSATION .

Ape hal la dengan tajuk kat atas 2?HAHA.Actually there are something that is happening to my during the last few week.And now aku rase terpanggil tuk share kan this thing dengan public especially dengan Cik LULA.So,what is happening.

Macam ni.

Aku since a few weeks ago,are getting closer with this guy *p/s:nothing went serious between us,and he is someone punye BF!
This thing started when aku mule call him just to ask him hang out with me at Subang Jaya.YUP!He do came to met me twice.But,after that hang-out-thing he started to texting and calling me.He started to do that more often.This thing berlarutan*cehhh,ayat!* until la aku balek ke Perak.Everything went so ok,until my mom started to realised about this.She said that it is not appropriate to be mesra with someone punye boyfriend,as he was my roomies punye boyfriend.EMM,actually there are a few of my friend that already said that I have to stop ''flirting'' with him.My mom had warned me to avoiding him and stopped be friend with him.And sebagai anak yg baik,I do follow her words.This thing had made that guy wondering and questioning himself about my silentness.

Well,to be honest,there are some other drama that ''circulate'' this incident,but,don't like feel wanna share it for this moment.But for this moment I would like to share some of the little conversation between me and him.*Thats why this entry get its tittle.

P/S:conversation ini tidak ade kena mengena dengan yang hidup mahupun yang sebalik ye.

GUY:HEY.Wuts up?Can I ask you sumthing?Wuts going on right now?Why
you juz silent and you like want to stay away from me.You dont
even give me a text.Can I ask you why?Why I'm the one who try to
find the answer?Why dont you just tell why.If you have sumthing
to say,you juz let me noe.If I'm the one who make you a problem.
Then I wont disturbing you!I dont want to be a disturbing person
and annoying guy to you.If u still dont give me the answer,dis
will be my last msg to u.Go on wif ur life and be urself.Always
be carefull.Study for ur future n u'll find sumone that can love
and take good care of u.Assalamualaikum.
ME:I dont gave any text to him.I just jawab salam dye dlm hati
------------->waalaikummussalam.


.............ngntuk la..sambung nnt la............

BAD BLOGGER AWARD .

*time dikir barat
*fooling around at the sri iskandar town
*PERSIK family day
*Adila's 18th birthday


*My dinner night!
YUP.I guess I deserved it.

I've been busy.Really,really buzy.*perghh---->what a lame excuse!
No time to update and also for the last 7 month,I have no time to open up this belog!

BTW,guest what?Aku dah berjaya habiskan part Satu dgn jaya ye*jaya la sgt*..tak sangka dah abis part satu (sem 1).On January nanti aku dah masuk part dua plak.YEY!Ade junior part one.Tapi,dye orang sebaya ngn aku la.PERGHH!BTW,A lot has happened time aku kat UiTM sepanjang the whole 6 months kat sana.I've learned a lot about the thing that before this I don't even know about QUANTITATIVE SCIENCE.Its not as easy as it sounds*eventhough sometimes people find it quite difficult to pronouns it*Well, actually tak ada satu pon course yg senang.Semua ye ade up and down.Don't ever dream to get a course that you can just duduk and goyang kaki je tau.Memang tak ada!

But,I've made a lot of mistake during my learning process kat sana.Tak bersungguh-sungguh,malas,banyak main,bla..bla..you name it!Tula,serve you right FASHA.Tu yang rase regret sikit.HMMM..I'll work harder when I'm in part two nanti.INSYAALLAH.

Memang plan bile dah end of semester nak snap picture banyak2,but,cam tal sempat je.Tp,ade la gak a few.Yang ade pon gambar family day,dinner and a few yg time kat kolej.

Last but not least,part one do gave me a lot of something to learn,think and do better next time.

Its hard to say...

I really,kena,terpaksa,have to,should,harus...you name it..as I'm going to futher my studies!But i'll be back to continue my art at pinkpondok.

My One and Only PinkPondok

dear miss lullaJ
well..
the picture above are some of my art
the picture of pinkpondok through my glasses
i really hope someday
i will be able to build a real pinkpondok

that create good handmade art
now all i have was a ITly version of pinkpondok
http://pinkpondok.blogspot.com/?spref=tw

AKU FANATIK KEPADA MU???

YA DAN YA DAN YA
AKU SEAKN OBSES DENGANMU
ANDAI AKU ADA SATU KAMERA AJAIB
AKAN KU RAKAM SETIAP GERIMU
JIWAKU SEAKAN MERONTA
MAHU MENGETAHUI LAGAK JURNALMU
TAPI . . .
ITU MUNGKIN HELAIAN MUKA YANG TERDAHULU
KERNA KINI AKU SEAKAN TELAH BERJANJI
PERJANJIAN YANG TIADA HITAM PUTIHNYA
ENTAH MAMPUKAH AKU MENGOTAKANNYA
YA . . .
AKU TELAH MENCABAR DIRIKU UNTUK KATAKAN TIDAK KEPADA DIA
KERANA AKU TIDAK MAHU SEPERTI PERIGI
TAPI . . .
AKU MASIH BERHARAP
DIA YANG MEMULAKANNYA

one more evidence that show how pengecut israel is.
they had attacked the fotilla ship.
please save gaza from them.

ok...
lets continue the butt thing...
em...
i am going to confess something now..
ok...
it is about my one and only Mr.FRONTMAN.
ya.i have feeling towards him since the first moment i saw him.
first sight love la ni.
he actually,just a simple ordinary guy.and i am actually usually easily attracted by hot and cool guy.
most likely that have the model look.but.
this is something different.he is just him.
ya.eventhough i have to admit that he is smart.
and maybe some of you would say he is a N.E.R.D.I.E.
and i don't care.
coz i love it!!

SHAHIR AF8 is my brand new Bf??


hahahaha..isn't that true??em..to be honest,yay..i am now totally addicted to him..
oppsss!!to his song,Kebahagiaan dalam Perpisahan..
look at his face.so peacefully ma...hehehehe
and love his jantan melayu punye voice..
and i wish someday i will have the
chance to meet him..
ya.i know that i am such an actress.that always easily attracted by hot and cool guys.
haha..starts from vince la,zain la,e-one la,aizat la,awal la..


BUTTTT...........
*to be continue later

when you love someone but you don't know what love actually is. when you don't want to live without him but you don't want to be in any commitment. when you can't see him with anyone but you want him to be happy. when you have this feeling but you don't know what it really is.

it is just so complicated.

Today i felt so in love...with myself...plus my brain!!
lullaJ ask:
Why was that??
Why so damn suddenly??
me answer:
Nothing serious la LJ..
Maybe because today i am all alone at home..
with my orange tee and a spicy mcdeluxe burger..huhu
anyway..
we human being should learn how to love ourselves in a proper way..
before we decided to love someone...sss
loving

♥

is good habit!!

SEVENCOLLAR TEE'S...

Date:22nd May 2010
Venue:KLPac
Mood:Robin Hoodies??

Me,my brain plus yong and ayah E...went to saw 7CTee's album launch..em..ok la..to be honest that band is totally not me..they got really good music..but it just their song..not that wow..btw,it still good a good job...8)

WEDDING OH WEDDING..

Date:22nd May 2010
Venue:Bandar Tun Razak
Mood:luvly

Congratulations to both kak lia and abg sham..both of you look great on that day..to abg sham,welcome to our family!!May u guys happily ever after...

Date:May,21,2010 Venue:pondokpink Mood:Kuala Lumpur

Today..my best pal..Mr. Fluffy had die..yay,its true!!!and until now i still don't know what really happen to Mr. Fluffy..as on the earlier night before Mr. F luffy die..i (as ussual) go to my bed and online...and on that day i already do my routine to cleaned up Mr. Fluffy ''home''..there where a lot of speculation regarding Mr. Fluffy dead.. IbuCakap:maybe Fluffy had a fight with the Encik Cicak..as ibu saw Fluffy neck had injury(maybe)..and maybe Encik Cicak had bite Fluffy!! BahCakap:maybe Fluffy had drank a little bit of the soap water..what!!??ya..i had to admit that i use soap to washed Fluffy punye tank.. entahla...what ever je la..RIP Mr. Fluffy...

♥ ya....em..do u think i should get a replacement??

TEACHER OH teacher...

I am here to wish Happy Teacher's Day to all the teachers in the world..espeacially to my teachers starts from my kindergarden teachers until my high school teachers..thank you for everything that all of you had teached me..thanks again.. ♥ all of you always!

After Highschool

UITM OH UITM.... venue:pinkpendora.. mood:AIM Yo!!Lulla J.. today i check about the places of 3rd thing of 5510..and i got SERI ISKANDAR!!em...i am happy be'coz the place is not to far...i think thats all i wanna say as i already felt sleepy... GOOD NYTE MISS LULLA!!ZZZzzzzzz

Venue:thepinkpondok...
Mood:maximalis...

Dear Lulla J...
em...today i really felt so much happier and ''bersyukur'' be'coz i already check the 3rd thing of 5510...and alhamdulilah..i got it...yup!!UiTM....E2820...SK...i can't wait to go there and futher my dream..but..i noe that i must struggle the best...and be more matured in wateva i do...thats all for this moment...=D

MY ROOM IN A MESS,MY MIND IN MESS..MY HEART IN A MESS TOO...

em...this moment of time...i felt liked wanna ''say'' it in my motherly tongue...i mean in Malay... i juz wanna say that... Adakah sesuatu yang dinamakan tuah ataupun peluang akan berpihak kepada ku...?? pada kali ini... entah la.. diri ku serba tidak kena.. Ya Allah S.W.T... berikanlah aku kesempatan itu....

Hi there..

em...

its the zebra...

white with black stripe or black with white stripe??

Just finish reading the vampire love saga novel by Stephenie Meyer,TWILIGHT....cool...5 star babe..

meet my dear boyfriend...FLUFFY....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!...skyboy....be more mature and serious in life..may Allah bless u...-26April10-

em... hey there.. look at me.. think back.. and talk to me.. did i grow up according to plan.. Nothing gonna changing... the truth.. i'm not a perfect person.. Nothing coz it all... -fromplanyangsimple-

Dear,
lullajournal.....
its almost 1 o'clock in the midnight...
i am almost alone...
and almost sad...
just a few minute ago..
i check the 5510 thing...
and once again i failed..
sumtimes i felt liked i already make a lot of mistake..
plus the wrong choices..
and now i really not sure about my life..
mum and dad..
sorry...........

em...hello people of the earth!!hehhe....what am i doing here...??...to write my daily journal??em...actually i use to write my daily routine plus whatever i feel like don't want to share with anyone else...in a book..yay!by hand and up there is my past two year diary....but for this year i think i wanna change my routine...as i wanna write it ITly way...BTW,nice to meet you,lullajornal!!=)