A tad bit of it

When people say life is an ongoing learning process where opportunities and chances roll into our lives in every single day and mistakes are bound to be made, and to be learn from, I can't help but wonder how much chances I have missed and how many mistakes I have failed to learned from, in fact perhaps I have repeated them.


When people say beauty is a very subjective matter to be discussed, that every woman is beautiful and it only takes the right man to see that beauty, I can't help but to ponder who has really ever see me as beautiful.



When people around me are not feeling at their own best, or in another word, sad, I try to give the best positive advices I could come up with, but it puzzles me how hard for me to take my own advices when I am the one who is feeling down.


When I tell myself, think of things that make you happy whenever I am sad, I question myself back, what if the same thing that makes me happy, makes me sad?

xoxo.

I'm no beauty queen, I'm just beauty me. Btw, say hello to my atok *raya 2011*

Quick Update 2# Mission : Books and Balloons Hunting

Dila kata this book best *The perks of being a wallflower*

My stack of collection of note books *wink wink*

balloons? =,='


"I just want to read beautiful things, stare at beautiful things, make beautiful things and be beautiful besides you,Z"



XOXO .

Quick Update : CHANGE EVERYTHING

React and be inspired to act .

Little Love and Roughness

This is what I wear. *jubah*

The simple, pink, purp, and white pelamin *auuww*



The cake tower

Here come the bride *black/grey outfits*

The entrace *this is what I want*

hmm..

Muzium *haa?*

Muke mintak penampo *haha*

same tak serupe *hikhik* //since when gelak gedik ni?

Little love this week. And again there are still some roughness. Or in normal way to say that is argue-ing here and there. That is the reality in life. We can't always expecting the nice *always* things in our life, as there might be some roughness around all our life' edges.

" Life is rough around the edges like..CRAYON "



Today I won't talk on the roughness that happen in my life' edges.

Well, despite all the roughness there are still little love, as I managed to coped myself with a little getaway.

One word.

T.A.I.P.I.N.G.

Yup, its Taiping The Bandar Warisan.


Please don't ask me how many times I've already when there. When talk about Taiping, somehow my heart feel so near to that rainy town *wink wink*. And again, please don't ask me why. I feel like I want to explore and went to every edges of that town. Even to some of us, there is nothing great there. But I do think its such an interesting and special place to go.

Well, enough of the over the top saying about Taiping. Coz that's not my main reason why I write today.

Back to the original point.

Actually, yesterday me and my family going to Taiping to attended a wedding of Auntie Nor's nephew. We left home around 11 a.m. and straight away drove to the wedding place at Kompleks Rakan Muda, Bukit Jana, Taiping. We arrive there around 1 p.m. When I arrive at the wed hall, I was mesmerize with the wed deco as the wed theme was pink, purple and white!! So nice and lovely wed. I captured some photos during the wed.

After the wed, we feel like not ready to went back home, thus my dad took us to the Perak Muzium. Yeah, I know its sounds lame when we talk about muzium, but hey, somehow I do feel that its a nice place to date with your beloved ones or even to bring your kids *I dreamed on bringing my twins to that muzium with my hubby!!* ","'

To make it short and simple, just let the picture do the talking.

I don't even butter my bread, coz I consider it cooking

well, i only butter ma bread with choc dude

BED VS BFF

I have confession.

"I don't know how to cook, but I love eating so much."

Do you have problem with that, boy?

Today's blog tittle really reflect how lazy I am. I'm sorry and I really owed an apologies and also I deserve the BAD BLOGGER AWARD yo.


It feel like ages I haven't been writing on here. It always the matter of not having the golden time and also not knowing what to write even there so much rhapsody and also anecdote that been bothering to get out of my mind. But definitely the urge of writing is there. It's the same feeling when you are hungry but you don't feel like eating, if you get what I'm saying la.


But here I am today typing these out because I remember the reason why I started blogging at the first place. Which is to create some sort of keepsake or a journal of my life. The same reason why I draw or make my art. It's fascinating how the technology today could help in keeping the memories tied close to us, well to me at last. So this post will be just another update of my life, which is now somewhere between the feeling of not knowing what to do and coped with my daily life.


The past few days, or maybe I should say weeks (maybe) I am struggling to coped with my eternal feeling as perhaps in the past I am a person that not easily struggle with that kind of fight. Yes. I am fighting with my own feeling. The feeling that maybe me and myself are also still confusing at. I know it is normal to a teen like me,thus in order for me to grown up to be a better mature adult someday. But I do admit that this fight is really making me tired, exhausted to be exactly, headache and somehow I can't stop doing the last thing that I want to do which is crying. I know this is just another turning point for me to become a better girl. Well, but then I think it will be not appropriate for me to express the thing that been bothering me as it is due to several eternal issues. Don't worry I am know trying to handle my life into the right way.


At the moment, I have like 12687675787985258354895418451895878628 things on my To-Do List, or at least that is how it feel like. So many things.


Well, you know how when you grow up you get to know yourself better? But that's not always the case, right? At least not all the time for me. I mean, there times when you feel like the more you know, the less you understand. Here's a question, what do you normally do when you feel that?


While you're pondering around with question of mine, well if you are, excuse myself as I need to out from here for a while, but don't worry coz I'll be back with some fresh issues of mine.


Nota bawah meja:

" Once in a while, our eyes need to be washed by our tears so that we can see life with a clearer view "

Dear boy, thanks for the late night tears.


XOXO.

Ramadhan ya Ramadhan

To me, Ramadhan is the perfect month for us, Muslims, to reflect on ourselves, to how we've been and to whom we wanna become. Allah s.w.t has been undoubtedly generous to provide us a 'magical' month to which is such a blessing to us all. Ramadhan is like having a 'Smart Tag' your way to be closer to our dearest Creator.

From Anas, radiyallahu 'anhu, who said: I heard the Messenger of Allah, sallallahu 'alayhi wasallam, say:

"Allah the Almighty has said: 'O son of Adam, so long as you call upon Me, and hope in Me, I shall forgive you for what you have done, and I shall not mind. O son of Adam, were your sins to reach the clouds in the sky and were you then to ask forgiveness of Me, I shall forgive you. O son of Adam, were you to come to Me with an earthful of sins and were you then to face Me, without having associated anything with Me, I shall grant you an earthful of pardon.''

For the past 28 days of sheer enjoyment of fasting, I too, have been thinking, and reflecting myself in so many ways. How I perform my solah, how I cover my aurah, how I take my ablution, and how frequent do I thank Allah for everything He has bestowed upon me. I do regret that my pace of improving is quite slow than I imagined it to be. I don't blame anyone but me though.

Whatever it is, I just am grateful to be given the opportunity to live and breathe to this day as a Muslim. Wearing a hijab and protect me from doing sinful things. To be blessed in this pink of health. And so many other uncountable things that I've been blessed with.

Talking about the 'aurah' and the image of a muslim girl. I do admit that somehow I don't really reflect the image as a muslim girl. There is a story behind all this saying. I know that sometimes when dressed myself, I don't really care if my outfits doesn't seem to be appropriate *sometimes* to be seen by others. One day, as I'm wearing white long blue sleeve with a black skirts, I didn't noticed that outfits is quite "seeing-able" by others. To make things up, there's a guy that noticed and adviced me to change my outfits *that guy didn't approached me face to face but he pass it to my friend* From that moment, I've started to think back on how I represent myself as a muslimah. I know that somehow I have to change myself to be a better muslimah with a good attitude and also a good image wear of a muslim girl.

Eidul Fitri is just around the corner. I do hope after this I will growing into a better muslim lady and may Allah swt bless my family, my study and myself. Hope this raya marks the end of eventful year and hope the next will just as (if not more) amazing as the last. Amin ya rabbal alamin.

We could have it all

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I like to remind myself how lucky I was to had time with him at all.

Me : You had my heart in your hand for now,and you played it to the beat *smile*
You: ....

It is really uncertainties that are driving me crazy,isn't it?I don't know what and why.There's too many question that I can't seem to stop them from keep coming into my head and the answers seem like there are not to be found. It is astounding how fate seems to play its role at its best when we least expect it.It is puzzling how some people are meant to meet and fall in love but are not meant to be together.The doubts that I have in myself are doing a pretty good job in further dragging myself mind-thinking imaginary world of mine that is fulled if life questing mostly the what-if questions.

It is also funny how you keep hoping on something despite knowing how hopeless it is.And then you keep telling yourself that thing happen for reasons,yep cliche enough at its best.And then while hoping for the time to help to sort things out for your,that feeling you thought you had forgotten just have to come back,sometimes stronger than before.But its not because of you are not over things yet,it simply because you miss how you felt back then.

Ok.DONE.Perhaps it is so wondering what is the reason for that entry above.Well actually me neither also kept asking myself *hahaha* Tak la.It is because I think that maybe I need some reversing techniques *haaa?whats that??* nop,perhaps its just a way to help me out to keep myself calm and keep living my life properly.And just to share with the world that tonight I've watched a sweet love movie by Khabir Bhatia entitled Keabadian Cinta.It is such a sweet movie about the lovelholic of three different couples.I love the way Khabir captured the love stories of them in his own simple way and make us think love in the deeper way.

p/s:Currently on Adele//Rolling in the Deep *nice*